- miи -の【未╬来】

haizZ...
jz feel dat he nw like owaz argue-ing wit me...
like trule all my fault...
sumtimes truely s0 angry of it...
becz of jz a little thg happen ny...
nw we argue is becz of a ppl 0n my fb...
jz ask sumthg say wan kao me ordy he s0 angry...
he call me remove him from fren...
kay~i ordy remove...
den he still dun lik n angry...
i dun0 wat he wan...
impossible he wan me to close my fb rite?!
if lik dat i os0 wun do it...
cz fb still gt many of my fren...
nw he din sms me...
i dun0 he wan hw~
i wan to be the 1st to sms him?
haizZ~
a word to me >>SAD<<...T___T :'(

TMD!
i din c flower heart ppl till like dat~!
still at thr say dun0!
cn say muack to any0ne~
cn say love u to any0ne~
cn call laopo to any0ne os0~
if me like dat~!
i thnk he will better angry den me!
still saying me n argue wit me?!
i thnk i truely angry in dis time lorh!
wanna me forgiv i thnk it hard in dis time!

最近跟他的感觉真的变淡了...
感觉很假很假~
好讨厌这样的感觉~~~
信息也少了...
感觉少了一些该有的感觉...
变得...
好闷好闷...
是我贪心吗？
还是我小气？
总觉得会很快说再见...
想在说再见前先收手...
不让自己跌得深~
不过我想说...
这次之后...
我要改变...
不谈电话恋爱了！
想要拥有真实和安全感~！
脾气也要改变！
很多的一切都要变！
我一定能做到！！！！

感觉上好像好久没写东西了...
偶尔想写可是很懒惰...
天天都想来报告今天所发生的事...
但是不知要如何开口...
要不然就是做东西到忘了...=3=
我今天突然会写并不是只写将少东西而已...
我想说我从今天起要卖lens了...
虽然不怎么了得...
只是帮帮朋友找之类的...
都只是要赚点钱来用...
不然每天向妈妈拿钱又被骂...>3<
出去做工又没人载...
只有买东西咯~~~
还有啊...
最近感觉和"他"感情变淡了...
信息也少了...
但是偶尔也有些甜言蜜语...
不然...唉~~~
有种感觉告诉我...
我们会很快分手~
但是我也知道会...
只是不懂几时...
唉...郁闷~~

2day is all skul re-open~
dat is my new hair style to g0 in my skul 4 the re-open~
jz from long hair change to short...
when i jz reach outside...
i c my fren chai kar mun...
my gud fren in skul~bt ouside os0 larh~
i chase up to her n g0 in 2gether~
when we c both of us...
she jz making my hair...==
n say my hair s0 cool...
i g0 in c dou "CJJ"...
he shout at me n say nice~
den i say thx~xDD
i g0 in the canteen...
i saw all my fren~
thy all excited cz i hav ct my hair...
thy all jz cubit my face n making my hair...==
i hav set my hair thy still like dat making my hair...
iiiiiissssshhhhhhhh~~~~
at waktu Sejarah...
teacher suddenly call my name...den i ask wat happen?
he u se her hand point to me n saying my hair cz i hav cut it...
aftr rest i wanna g0 in my class...
i c my fren os0...
dat Heng Hui Ping~
he c my hair n call me g0 thr...
'den i walk to thr he say "eii...u hav cut ur hair o~"
i ans "ya larh~u jz c ny~"
den he say "s0 lenqq nui dy u"
i jz feel shy n ans "whr gt~"
den i leave dy...
at the time i gt feel bit bit happy~
cz dat he 1st time say me lenqq...n be4 s0 long dat he is my lover bt ne n0 dy lurR~
bt i thnk it jz kidding ==
den till aftr skull...
when i'm waiting to my mum cuming...
i feel s0 bored...
den i walk to my fren thr...
gt a boy be4 dat s0 like to fight mouth wit me...
i jz cing him den he s0 s0 s0 excited n say "eii?!y u at here d?"
i ans "i hav long time at here larh...i jz cut short my hair u dn cam me dy..."
he say "ya larh...i truely dun cam u..."
walao~
i jz change it to short hair ny os0 gt ppl dun cam me~?!
OMG~~~~~~~~
den he say "cz u cut dy hair lenqq nui dy...nt like be4 dat..."
i jz speechles dy~
=="
den my car reach dy i walk fat fat to my car thr~
dat all my short hair 1st day at skul...==

2day when i 0n my fb i see "he" say maybe he will getting bec to new jersey...
becz of his mum...
he dwn to bec n argue wit her mum...
i dn hope dat he will bec...
at thee time i cry...
i'm thnking of...if he bec den hw bout me?
if he bec den i cnt sms him...
if he bec i mz getting s0 hurt...
den i jz cn hope dat he mum won giv him bec...
n...2day all my family os0 their own diner...
jz leave me alone...
4pm i g0 dance...
when 6pm like dat we hav fnsh the dance...
we g0 psr mlm buy thg to eat...
cz we still gt continue dance aftr eat...
when it 9pm dy we hav fnsh...
den we go "tea time" yam cha...
at be4 dance n yam cha wit my fren dat time i still feeling s0 happy...
bt dat is last of my happy time...
when my mum fetch me hum my mum say she wanna taking back dat stupid drop fur dog!
at the time i feel unhappy...
cz at be4 dat my dat stupid dog still at my hum i hav giv my family scold many time!
i hate it!
den my br0 n her wife knw dy my br0 n my mum was fight at my room outside...
i jz feel it scary...den i hide inside my room...
aftr dat they return to their own room....
i thnk it maybe ntg dy...
den my mum getting out dy...
bt my br0 suddenly cum my room n ask me...
my mum say she wanna pindah from dis house...
den who i wan to follow?
i jz say dun0...i truely dun0 hw to choose it!
my happy family was break easily like dat!!!
y?!becz jz of 0ne stupid dog like dat?!
i dwn my life will becum like dat!
i dwn hav a broken memory of my family!!!
pls~dn let me be alone...
pls~dn take away all my memory...
pls~i wanna my happy life...
pls~giv bec me~