- miи -の【未╬来】

it jz can say yesterday we hav game over...
dis is my fault...
i cnt accpt a bf nt beside cnt giv me warm...
it over by myself...
whn i'm going to over...
i hav cry...
it jz cry suddenky...
i though it wun cry d..
bt it cry os0 dy~
i'm damn sad...
bt dat i excited i cry at front of a boy!
dat my 1st time larh!
cz i sked...
bt luckily ntg~
to kenji::hey kenji!if u gt c my blog dis is i wanna spk tp u...i'm nt ur lover~do u knw?xing yi still at ur heart...it jhz can say i'm over sensitive...n.....i suddenly cnt accpt a bf nt beside me...cz i nid warm...whn sumtimes i was crying u dun0...if i lie u u os0 dun0~bt in dis few time n 2 months like dat...i knw i love u damn deep!i'm s0 s0 s0 sorry!sorry 4 all thg!n pls dun hurt urself dy~take care~n pls 4get my love 4get ur missing...whn i thnking wanna to brk i hav thnk many time...i jz cn say i wan let down dy~its to0 hard to us dy~sorry...last time to u honey~i love u muackxX~

mood::teardrop n feel s0 sorry to him...

my br0 wife suddenly argue wit my br0..
den it s0 scary n i scare...
den suddelny i miz my beer n alcohol...
den i ask him::"can i drnk beer?"
den he say::"hoi!cnt drnk..."
he say again::"if u dare to drnk i dwn talk wit u to my whole rest of my life"
OMG~gt s0 seriousl 0nt orh ==?
den i ask again "i dun drnk bt i walk under the rain xDD"
den he say"u walk under the rain i kill my self"
den i say gt s0 seriously 0nt orh?
he say dat he nt joking he is serious...
LoL~=-="
den i ask ::"if i ct myself leh?"
he say::"if u ct urself arh,u r the person i really hate sooo much n damn much n dwn saw my face 4ever~"
walao~its s0 scary guy arh him...
den i ask nxt question to him
"if i out wit biy leh?"
he say:"den i os0 out wit gurl n silently keep a 2nd gf~"
cnt tahan him dy~=-= >"<
he like cn hold all my thg...
easy make me jealous n feel sked~=-=
he is a scary ppl~
bt i still love him~=D
love u ya~xDD

watching ur blog....
c-ing ur old FB...
sumtimes it hurt me...
feel like u lie-ing me...
u make me hopeless sumtimes...
sumtimes i truely dun0 hu u r talking about?
hu u r speaking to...
u say dat...
i trust it...
cz i dunave choosen to say n0 to myself~
maybe its u lie..maybe its true os0~
i can't ask u...
cz i dun0 hw i wan to ask...
it make me feel unsave nw...
it make me confuse...
it make me scary os0...
sumtimes i was hoping let myself m0re busy to 4get every thg...
bt y i can't doo it?
m0re busy m0re missing...
if dis is make u feel sorry or wat?
sorry...
i jz can tell u...
i'm a easy sensitive gurl...
i os0 dun0 y...
if u feel its hard to u...
den jz tell me....
sorry...

finally he has tell me all thruth...
i'm happy he din lie me dy~
bt still gt bit sad...
sincerly dat is my fault i os0 dun0...
i make him misunderstand...
maybe say sorry dat nt him...
is me wanna to tell him sorry...
nw my heart feel m0re better...
cz he pr0miz me he dwn to lie me again...
n0 m0re "ntg" n n0 m0re "dwn"...
my tear din waste to drop...cz he din make me hopeless...
n he os0 dwn me to tell him if i'm sad or wat...
thx dear~
u din make me hopeless..
bt dun 4get our pr0miz...
wun brk the pr0miz 4ever~
n gt sumthg i jz knw from laz nite...
u dun like me out wit boy d..= =
n say if i out wit boy u g0 kiz othr gurl...
u arh~s0 pr0 to make me lik dat orh?
if chnge me say like dat owaz jz n0n feeling to u d...unfair to me larh~T___T
dun0 wan hw to make u like dat...
i wan 5 sum idea~=D

laz nite u hav tell me the truth...
i'm nt s0 sad...
i jz dun0 wan hw to say sumthg to u...
nw hav many pr0blem make us m0re cold dy...
i dwn lik dat...
if cn...
i dwn chnge...
i wan be4 dat d feeling...
dat time it jz make me m0re happy...
u lie me...
i knw...u dwn to tell me...cz u dwn me sad or wat...
bt if u lie me jz make me m0re sad...
laz nite i hav crying in dream...
dat feeling is very sad in whole of my live...
u dwn to tell me dat my sad was m0re dy...
my fren owaz ask me::u dun sked ur bf outside still gt 0ne?
bt i jz ans dun0...watever...
i dun0 wat u thnk...u dwn to tell me all...
u owaz say u love me...bt u din trust me at all wat?
my fren owaz tell me dat i'm pity...
bt i knw i'm nt!cz i jz trust u...
dats all i jz can say ny...
hope u can c dis post...
I LOVE U...N WUN U LET U G0...CZ OF LOVE!

be4 dat i hav webcam wit him 2 times~
s0 funny...
i jz sddnly saw him gt webcam den i wan ply
bt he dwn~
cz he say he nt yt bath n wat bla bla bla larh~=3=
i jz non stop say wan...
finally he os0 ply wit me~
bt he os0 lose his DOTA~xDD
i have take sum funny photo at the webcam~
bt n0n feeling to him os0 d~=3=
he face nt bad larh~
bt he non stop to making his hair~
zZz~
if can better use water pour to his hair~xDD
whn webcam wit him i feel inferior...
cz i'm ugly~T___T
bt os0 cnt change larh~
hu call me ugly~
haizZ~
n i os0 dun like to make up os0~
10yrs din make up a time arh~= =
k larh~
here i hav share sum photo to every 0ne~^^v

2day is me n him 3 month anniversary~
ordy 3 month...
i thnk jz a while ny...
dis relation can say it longest 4 me...
bt it nt longest 4 him~
he is nw all of mine...
my puppy hav giv ppl...
nw jz gt him i cnt lost~
i love him more than i thnk...
bt hw bout him?
i truely dun0~
bt i trust him...
bt os0 nt at all larh~xDD
cz ppl owaz say trust more hurt more~
from nw on...
i wun force myself to do sumthg i'm sked n anymore...
cz i wan chnge...
at last i wan to say
-----DeaR , I ♥LOVE♥ U-----
hw bout u?
n congratulations us 3 month anniversary~